In What We Trust?

I can't for my life figure out what's going on with my life. It seems like, the more you want to take control, the less control you have.

Let's be clear about one thing. I want an iPad. However, recent events are NOT the ways I want to get my iPad. If I were to get one, I want it to be legit and I want to be proud of the way I got it.

Realization of own my sick, twisted obsession with materialistic things have brought me to a whole new level. It was a battle between moral and greed. In the end, moral won, thank God.

When did I become such a hateful person? I'm literally faithless, hopeless and happy-less. A dear friend had invited me to join a religious study group. The study group did make me feel warm and welcome, but I feel like my heart is in a far away place. Or better yet, I have an empty heart. I have become so unwilling to trust, so reluctant to care, so lazy to act and so emotionless to feel.

Security.

Daniel Hu