As parents, you always want to protect your precious children from the evil, the harm, and the ugliness of the world. As a child, you have the innocence, the curiosity, the desire for more knowledge. You dream of the things you're going to do when you grow up, and the great things you will accomplish. You spend endless nights thinking what kind of future is waiting for you. You enjoy little things such as being able to eat sweets, and you enjoy little moments, such as simply going on a see-saw or a swing.
Have we all lost a sense of this innocence? The world is a dangerous, and almost unforgiving place. We go through puberty, we mature, we become adults, and yet most of us aren't even ready when we step into reality. However, when is the proper time to step into reality? For some of us, it may be never. We are so sheltered by the illusion created by our family, or our surrounding, we never see the true light. For some of us, we step into it unwillingly.
Truth is often stranger than fiction.
-Ddaniel
2013年1月12日 星期六
2013年1月3日 星期四
Family, Friends, and Farewell.
A new year has begun!
This year is going to be an exciting year because I will be tackling pretty much every aspect of dentistry from now on. I am super nervous, yet super excited and optimistic. However, I know this optimism won't last very long. Soon I will be beaten by the stress and busyness and I won't be able to breathe again.
The last few days have been very good with the recent accident being settled, welcoming the new year, and realising what's really important to me.
I've moved away from home for three years now. At first I hated it. I wanted to come home as much as possible and stay away from that accommodation as much as possible. Some time passed, then I became very used to it. I enjoyed the freedom of being alone. I enjoyed being by myself. It's funny because it's not even by myself, I have other housemates in the house too! The frequency of returning home to Brisbane became less and less. One month ago, I hated being back 'home' because I didn't feel at home. I feel like I was just stuck in a place where I have no freedom. I am used to being alone. I am used to washing my own dishes. I am used to cooking for myself. I am used to doing everything myself (or not do everything), and returning home makes me feel like a guest and feel restricted as well.
I've lost that family loving side of me for sure. I've taken my family for granted, thinking they'd always be here. However, I have slowly come to realise that's not the case. How many years will I really spend with them? Shouldn't the time I spend with them now be treasured? In 2 years time I will start to work. Will I still be at home? Will I move out? In 20, or 30 years time, are my parents and grandparent still going to be healthy? I don't want to regret when the time comes. I have been trying to make the most out of it lately, and I am slowly making progress.
Your parents raise you to be a certain way, but once a child enters the real world, they start to morph into the real 'him/her'. It's not that the child doesn't like your teaching, it's just the child isn't just a robot. I've become so different to what my family traditions dictate one should be, sometimes I feel like an outcast. I grew up in a Western culture and I've become very accustomed to it. I still have the Eastern side of me, however, some of the things that happen regularly at 'home' I just cannot agree with.
One of the most amazing type of love in this world is the love for your family. Recently I've rediscovered that in a different way. I've lost that sense of belonging in a family. For a short while last night, I felt like a part of the family too. I felt like that little boy I was 10 years ago again. The one who was loved and protected by everyone. It's not that I don't enjoy being loved and protected, I just don't need the same kind of love and protection. Your family should always be the first to put you on a pedestal and treat you like the king of the world. At least my family does that. My father is never one to be good with words, however his actions have spoken a lot over the last few years. I can tell he is proud of me and my brother and how far we've come from a family that's not perfect. He gives me all the freedom I need, and rarely complains about how little time I spend at home with family, or just with him, yet I know he secretly enjoys every moment spent with me. He's never really approached me to talk deeply or connect on any levels, yet he's treasured the little information and things I've given him. This love cannot be replaced by anything else in this world. With that, I hope I can return to the simple boy I used to be. Less hate, more love. It is family after all.
Now people often say, you are born with a family, but your friends are the family you choose to have around you. It is January 2013 now. I have met many new people last year and I feel privileged to have gotten to know all of them. Being born and raised in this country, I have never ever lived more than 6 months in another country other than Taiwan, where I am originally from. I do not know what it feels like to live in a place for a year and then having to leave. Just a year ago, around this time, I met a couple who was here for working holiday from Taiwan and I met them just at New Years Eve, then I had to quickly say goodbye to them in a few weeks. For me, I was sad but not devastated. Last year, I also met another person through a friend. Soon she will return (next week in fact). I feel sorrow, I feel sadness, because I don't want to ever say goodbye to anyone. Saying goodbye is as if you will never see the person again. However, is there any other way? That's how this world works. You can't stay in another country forever doing nothing unless you have earned your right as a citizen. There's no other alternative other than her departure and the goodbye that needs to be said. Will every January be like this? Will I have to say goodbye to someone again?
I am now 21. For 21 years, I have met many people, and have said goodbye to so many people. I will continue to do in my life. Friends come and go. People will walk into your life, and accompany you through a certain period, and then leave. What makes these people real is the memories you share with them. However, when you forget, what does it become?
What will happen in the future, no body knows. Will I keep in touch with this girl? Will I keep in touch with the friends I've just spent a good summer with? Maybe. Maybe not. To her, I am a big part of her whole memory of her 1 year of time in Australia. To me, she is a small part of my life here in Australia. To say she is a small part is in no way saying she is insignificant, but it's the truth. Her life (and also everyone who comes here for working holiday or holiday visa) is in Taiwan. That's the real life she lives. This is just a small chapter of her life. To me, my life is here. It's a big chapter. Her appearance is a part of a big chapter of my life. It's scary to think about it this way because if one forgets, then does it make this friendship real?
We always think of how things will be in a the future. Sometimes we are too caught up with predicting how the future will be, we forget to live in the present. So many faces come and go every day of our life, it almost seems impossible to say you'll remember 'every moment' you've spent with someone.
We all definitely take the time spent with friends for granted. Every one of these people I've met last year and gotten closer to means something to me. I've chosen to let them be a part of my life and they've also chosen to let me be a part of their life. What we need to do is cherish every moment and make every moment real.
I thank you, all my friends who's made 2012 special for me, the new friends, the old friends, the old friends that I haven't spoken to in a long time and the new friends that will come. Remember, if you judge every book by its cover, no books will be read. Same with people. If you never given them a chance, they will just be empty people in your life.
Farewell 2012.
Farewell, some friends.
We will meet again. I know it. It won't feel the same, but it will feel warm again.
-Daniel
This year is going to be an exciting year because I will be tackling pretty much every aspect of dentistry from now on. I am super nervous, yet super excited and optimistic. However, I know this optimism won't last very long. Soon I will be beaten by the stress and busyness and I won't be able to breathe again.
The last few days have been very good with the recent accident being settled, welcoming the new year, and realising what's really important to me.
I've moved away from home for three years now. At first I hated it. I wanted to come home as much as possible and stay away from that accommodation as much as possible. Some time passed, then I became very used to it. I enjoyed the freedom of being alone. I enjoyed being by myself. It's funny because it's not even by myself, I have other housemates in the house too! The frequency of returning home to Brisbane became less and less. One month ago, I hated being back 'home' because I didn't feel at home. I feel like I was just stuck in a place where I have no freedom. I am used to being alone. I am used to washing my own dishes. I am used to cooking for myself. I am used to doing everything myself (or not do everything), and returning home makes me feel like a guest and feel restricted as well.
I've lost that family loving side of me for sure. I've taken my family for granted, thinking they'd always be here. However, I have slowly come to realise that's not the case. How many years will I really spend with them? Shouldn't the time I spend with them now be treasured? In 2 years time I will start to work. Will I still be at home? Will I move out? In 20, or 30 years time, are my parents and grandparent still going to be healthy? I don't want to regret when the time comes. I have been trying to make the most out of it lately, and I am slowly making progress.
Your parents raise you to be a certain way, but once a child enters the real world, they start to morph into the real 'him/her'. It's not that the child doesn't like your teaching, it's just the child isn't just a robot. I've become so different to what my family traditions dictate one should be, sometimes I feel like an outcast. I grew up in a Western culture and I've become very accustomed to it. I still have the Eastern side of me, however, some of the things that happen regularly at 'home' I just cannot agree with.
One of the most amazing type of love in this world is the love for your family. Recently I've rediscovered that in a different way. I've lost that sense of belonging in a family. For a short while last night, I felt like a part of the family too. I felt like that little boy I was 10 years ago again. The one who was loved and protected by everyone. It's not that I don't enjoy being loved and protected, I just don't need the same kind of love and protection. Your family should always be the first to put you on a pedestal and treat you like the king of the world. At least my family does that. My father is never one to be good with words, however his actions have spoken a lot over the last few years. I can tell he is proud of me and my brother and how far we've come from a family that's not perfect. He gives me all the freedom I need, and rarely complains about how little time I spend at home with family, or just with him, yet I know he secretly enjoys every moment spent with me. He's never really approached me to talk deeply or connect on any levels, yet he's treasured the little information and things I've given him. This love cannot be replaced by anything else in this world. With that, I hope I can return to the simple boy I used to be. Less hate, more love. It is family after all.
Now people often say, you are born with a family, but your friends are the family you choose to have around you. It is January 2013 now. I have met many new people last year and I feel privileged to have gotten to know all of them. Being born and raised in this country, I have never ever lived more than 6 months in another country other than Taiwan, where I am originally from. I do not know what it feels like to live in a place for a year and then having to leave. Just a year ago, around this time, I met a couple who was here for working holiday from Taiwan and I met them just at New Years Eve, then I had to quickly say goodbye to them in a few weeks. For me, I was sad but not devastated. Last year, I also met another person through a friend. Soon she will return (next week in fact). I feel sorrow, I feel sadness, because I don't want to ever say goodbye to anyone. Saying goodbye is as if you will never see the person again. However, is there any other way? That's how this world works. You can't stay in another country forever doing nothing unless you have earned your right as a citizen. There's no other alternative other than her departure and the goodbye that needs to be said. Will every January be like this? Will I have to say goodbye to someone again?
I am now 21. For 21 years, I have met many people, and have said goodbye to so many people. I will continue to do in my life. Friends come and go. People will walk into your life, and accompany you through a certain period, and then leave. What makes these people real is the memories you share with them. However, when you forget, what does it become?
What will happen in the future, no body knows. Will I keep in touch with this girl? Will I keep in touch with the friends I've just spent a good summer with? Maybe. Maybe not. To her, I am a big part of her whole memory of her 1 year of time in Australia. To me, she is a small part of my life here in Australia. To say she is a small part is in no way saying she is insignificant, but it's the truth. Her life (and also everyone who comes here for working holiday or holiday visa) is in Taiwan. That's the real life she lives. This is just a small chapter of her life. To me, my life is here. It's a big chapter. Her appearance is a part of a big chapter of my life. It's scary to think about it this way because if one forgets, then does it make this friendship real?
We always think of how things will be in a the future. Sometimes we are too caught up with predicting how the future will be, we forget to live in the present. So many faces come and go every day of our life, it almost seems impossible to say you'll remember 'every moment' you've spent with someone.
We all definitely take the time spent with friends for granted. Every one of these people I've met last year and gotten closer to means something to me. I've chosen to let them be a part of my life and they've also chosen to let me be a part of their life. What we need to do is cherish every moment and make every moment real.
I thank you, all my friends who's made 2012 special for me, the new friends, the old friends, the old friends that I haven't spoken to in a long time and the new friends that will come. Remember, if you judge every book by its cover, no books will be read. Same with people. If you never given them a chance, they will just be empty people in your life.
Farewell 2012.
Farewell, some friends.
We will meet again. I know it. It won't feel the same, but it will feel warm again.
-Daniel
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